“Fear, y’know, will drive you to, at times, in desperation,
will allow you to do incredible things in the name of survival. At times… I was
just- everything had- y’know, just… I created an environment for myself and a
way of living for myself that on the outside seemed incredibly gregarious and
vivacious and I was just… I mean, I don’t have any- I don’t believe I have any
chemical predisposition towards suppression, but… let’s just call it a- I was
suffering from a spiritual malady, I suppose, for years. And I just indulged
that and it was sweet. Cos at times, to be in pain, if it’s self perpetuated,
at times, can be sweet. You can feel very alive when you’re in pain and I also
know that from another perspective. Like when somebody who I love in my life
has passed away, there is something incredibly… yeah internally vivacious about
feeling pain or mourning. And even if it is as ego-centric or self indulgent as
mourning for yourself or pitying for yourself and all that kinda stuff…
So I’m glad I’m out of that cycle of my life and, y’know… I’m
very lucky.”
Colin Farrell on getting sober (in every sense of the word,
he did SO much crap in his life)
And it’s a brilliant message, such a brilliant speech from
him, I felt like sharing it.
That’s all I have to say.
Strangely enough, this image sprang to mind when regarding the subject of this
post. By living and loving, I can fully remember how everything felt. On that
beach, on that holiday, and with my family. And that is what life’s truly about.
Never allow anything to alter the very senses that keep you alive.
It’s always better to face the
problems head on, rather than delving deeper into the ‘void’. Although pain can
be satisfying, it also leads one down a terrible road… and unfortunately, the
pain and suffering caused through intoxication and abuse of those substances is
a road not many people return from.
So… stay healthy and beautiful, people xxxx
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